How is your family made up?
At the age of 71 years old my sweet and saucy Grandmother from Blackville, South Carolina started to raise me in Glendale, Arizona. Growing up I played Basketball, softball, volleyball and badminton. Through sports I was able to be saved as a Christian - thanks to FCA (HOLLA!). At the lovely age of 20 the Traveling Airman and I met... and six crazy months later we got married in July of 2005 in Avondale, Arizona. For 3.5 years we walked a journey of infertility that was not filled with many answers as to why. In late 2008 after quitting my job and moving to Italy we found out I was expecting. We then had our 1st daughter Emma in Aviano, Italy. In October 13, 2009 I experienced my first ectopic pregnancy, we call that sweet baby Max. After walking a year mixed with milestones of our newborn and moments of grief from loss we decided to try again. On October 13, 2010 I experienced another heart breaking loss but this time the babies heart stopped beating, we call that sweet baby Ethan. After many prayers and a high risk pregnancy we welcomed our 2nd daughter Ellie in August of 2011. Just as The Traveling Airman and I were discussing how our family was complete we were surprised with another pregnancy. This sweet baby ended due to cornual ectopic pregnancy. The loss of Samson broke us in a whole knew way as a Christ follower. After 22 months of waiting we started journeying through a very high risk pregnancy that gave us our 3rd daughter, Adeline.
What happened after the birth of Adeline?
10 days postpartum I experienced a mass blood hemorrhage that resulted in 9 blood transfusions, an open hysterectomy and a 5 day hospital stay.
What types of births & losses have I experienced?
As you can tell, motherhood has put me through the ringer. And by that I mean 1 pitocin induced birth, 1 Ectopic Pregnancy in the Tube, 1 Miscarriage, 1 all natural birth, 1 Cornual Ectopic, and 1 C-Section.
Why did you stop trying to fit all of the things in?
Therapy. For those who don't know I have been in trauma therapy since experiencing my near death experience as I struggled with severe panic attacks and anxiety. In therapy I have learned that saying yes or remaining busy can keep you from truly healing and it can also compact into further emotional troubles later on so I dropped all the things. Now I guard my schedule so that I am not over booking or wearing myself thin.
What's Up with #sunsittingseason?
I started this hashtag after my near death experience. My OB who first noticed the starting signs of PTSD while in the hospital suggested that I take myself and my baby out and sit in the sun...or to even open up the blinds and sit in it. During this season of life where I've been intentional about sun sitting it's given me deep knowledge through a mix of trauma therapy, spiritual counseling, and trauma & restorative yoga.
Do you still work with Marketing + design?
I do, check out the link called This 'Ol Thing