Poem & Lyrics

What do you say to your child who calls over 1,500 miles away from home saying they are taking her in to emergency surgery to remove the baby and if they don't do it she will bleed to death? All my Mom could ask is why and how. . . I personally never got to finish the conversation with her as I had to leave down to lab. But I could only image what was going through her mind at that time, I know she stayed up waiting to hear from Jeremy on how it all went. A few days later she emailed me a poem that I hold dear to my heart. I know she couldn't be here but she gave me something better than her self and that was her words of comfort.

Here is one of the two poems she sent:

From Me To You Mommie

From A Single Moment Shared By Two
We Started A Journey, Me & You.
My Destiny Was Determined Before I Came
I Touched Your Heart, It Will Never be the Same.
It Was Never About Me Being Born or You Watching Me Grow…
I Served My Purpose, That is Something You will Someday Know.
I Know Your Voice, It is Distinct From Any Other,
Little “M” Now Has  A Sister Or Maybe a Brother.
Do Not Feel Sad or That I Was Cheated Out Of Life….
It Was Never Meant For Me To Be A Child, a Husband or a Wife.
God  Has His Reasons, Though You May Not Understand….
He is A loving God, Reach Out, Give Him Your Hand.

It Is Hard To Trust When Things Don’t Go Our Way,
It Is Hard To Believe That Someone Else Could Have The Final Say.
Trust Is Believing In What You Can Not Touch Or See,
Look At The Miracle Of Life & Remember Me.
I Lived My Life To It’s Fullest Extent
Everything Went Just As It Was Meant.
I Returned From Where I Came
But You Have Changed, You are not the Same.
Take The Lesson That I Have Brought
Let Me Be The Teacher & You Learn the Lesson To Be Taught.
Open Your Heart & Let The Pain Go
“ I Love You Mommie” That is What You Need To Know.

One thing I divulge my self in is music and lyrics especially when I have a lot on my mind. Here are the lyrics to a song I have constantly playing as I feel at peace.

I Will Carry You
There were photographs I wanted to take
Things I wanted to show you
Sing sweet lullabies, wipe your teary eyes
Who could love you like this?

People say that I am brave but I'm not
Truth is I'm barely hanging on
But there's a greater story
Written long before me
Because He loves you like this

So I will carry you
While your heart beats here
Long beyond the empty cradle
Through the coming years
I will carry you
All my life
And I will praise the One Who's chosen me
To carry you

Such a short time
Such a long road
All this madness
But I know
That the silence
Has brought me to His voice
And He says...

I've shown her photographs of time beginning
Walked her through the parted seas
Angel lullabies, no more teary eyes
Who could love her like this?

I will carry you
While your heart beats here
Long beyond the empty cradle
Through the coming years
I will carry you
All your life
And I will praise the One Who's chosen Me
To carry you

Jusika Martinez

Tucson, Arizona, USA