DECEMBER GOALS UPDATE
Before we start in on January Goals I want to update you
My personal goal was to "Be Okay" with moving to any new place, where ever it was. Although, most would be excited by moving back to the state they were born in... I was not. It brought up a whole lot of feelings I had been stuffing for years upon years. After a lot of prayer and dialog with a mentor I can say that God has not only placed a peace in my heart about it, but he has also answered & healed me on a lot of the things I've prayed over - I am beyond Thankful!
Be There was my Mom Goal and a whole lot of Mommyhood happened in December as EmmaBemma was on school break. It was good to see my daughter's bond even more and it was good to witness them pick their own Christmas tree. Emma experienced a lot of missing Daddy so it was good to be able to be there with her in that and let her know that he loves her even though he's off fighting for our safety.
My God Goal was to Dig & Trust: I am still digging and trusting. In December I read over the book of Isaiah and it's really just gone right along with this consistent whisper I feel that's being said to me about being "ready". Ready to say yes to him where ever he calls me and where ever preaching his gospel looks like. I also feel that "are you ready?" feels like a "he died for you, are you ready to allow yourself to die for him?" and with a lot of thought I have to just say YES, YES, YES - hands down I am ready.
Set a plan is like setting a goal right? Right...(just shake your head yes LOL) This is still a work in progress. I have a list of things I want to write about and talk about for the blog, but I do not have a plan for the shop which is okay to a certain extent because this wasn't started to further a shop. It was built to spread the gospel and to let women know they are not alone during their loss.
BE PRESENT & INTENTIONAL: While remaining rooted in his word this month I would like to be present in a way where I am not seeking what God can do for me, but more so of where he wants me from church's to volunteering I want to seek his guidance and do what he wants me to do. With that I would also like to become more intentional with how I talk to people about Christ. I don't want to give them a makeshift way of how he's all rainbows and fluffy clouds - I want them to know that their struggle with their walk is okay and encourage them in a way to want to seek more of him and less of what the word says.
TAKE CARE & BALANCE: In order for me to do things well or be okay, I need to take care of myself and with moving and a returning Husband that can sometimes be hard. I want to balance myself well and also find the new rhythm for me to feel taken care of.
REINTERGRATE: Ya'll I've been running our home since Goose has been gone (almost 15 months) and just a bit of real talk here, I can be stubborn & prideful especially when I feel I've done something well. So my goal is to learn how to be the assistant and helper in the way God designed a husband and wife. I want him to not feel overwhelmed with the pace we've kept and I want him to be able to feel as if this is a team effort.
CONTINUE TO BE THERE: Daddy home, moving, new church, new school, new friends I am highly worried my girls will feel displaced and I just want to be there for them when they miss so and so. I want to tell them that it's okay and that a new normal will soon come and to now worry.
SEEK WISDOM FROM THE KING: I want to know when he feels that it's time to open again. I will be doing logo, branding and social media consultations while I move, but I will not be making any prints. The thing with the prints is that it's was created out of a need for raffles in my church for the Woman's dinner - it wasn't because I felt the "need to" join the print shop businesses. So I am praying over where God wants me to go with that section of the shop.