Midnight Mind Dump

It's been a good while since I did a mind dump so here we go, yall! 

  • On Sunday we celebrated our 60th Anniversary at New Life Bible Fellowship. Every church I've been to here in Tucson has not been here that long. 
  • The age makes the difference I think. 
  • We've now been at New Life 2 months. 
  • It was a fluke on how God lead us there. 
  • It started with a random Indeed search. 
  • The search wasn't even for a church. 
  • The search I did was for a Marketing Director.
  • New Life ran an ad looking for an Art Director. 
  • So applied.
  • I was more interested in making sure that this could be a church home for us, not the job. 
  • Which is not how I've ever looked at it before. 
  • But the process was long, but slow which is where I gained trust in what they were doing and looking for. 
  • I am really thankful for the timing of New Life and the people that have walked with me these two months. 
  • I haven't mentioned this yet, but I am back to being a Key Spouse for the U.S. Air Force. 
  • I never thought and even said I would never do it again, but here I am. 
  • Anyway, today I teamed up with other Key Spouses to provide a meal to the Airman in the Dorm that are currently away from family. 
  • It was fun, a lot of unexpected conversation. 
  • This week I got photos from my sister. 
  • The photos were from Blackville, SC. 
  • The photos were also from my Grandmothers family. 
  • It really made me missed her. 
  • I am currently listening to Victory Lap from Macklemore. 
  • It has a verse that says "Don't forget where you come from. Don't die holding on to your words. Cause you know you got a whole world to change. But understand who you got to change first". 
  • Makes me think about how I've liked to keep where I come from. 
  • A part of it is because my childhood wasn't really a childhood because of things I experienced. 
  • I finally told my Intensive Outpatient Program therapist last week about my childhood. 
  • Her response was that it filled in a lot of color to the picture of who I am and why - basically, it made a lot of sense. 
  • It's been interesting to get non-judgemental full acceptance of what you have lived in life from group.. 
  • I feel like we as a society constantly are 1 uppers. 
  • Like "OH, you grew up in the ghetto....well, I grew up in Compton and was a part of the 13th street gang." 
  • I can't do that, it's hard, it makes my life feel invalid because someone 1 upped me. 
  • Speaking about where we come from, I am noticing that California has really influenced me.
  • I think it was because of the timing. 
  • When we left Italy we didn't have a "home" to go back to, I think that happens after you leave your hometown with no intentions of ever going back. 
  • We built a life there in California. 
  • We found friends that became family. 
  • Even though we knew our time was limited there we settled in nice and cozy. 
  • We are 98% sure we are going back when this whole military thing is over. 

Well, that's all folks. Adi is crying and just on time for her night feeding.