Midnight Mind Dump

It’s midnight and thanks to my current struggle with nightmares (thanks PTSD for keeping me humble) it’s given you this hopefully semi-serious/semi-hilarious blog post. If it’s lackadaisical…give me grace, it’s been a few months since I blogged. 

Since you’ll likely read this when you wake up, Hi - good morning! 

  •    I watched about 5 shows of Property Brothers today. 
  • It reminded me about all my fears of buying a house. 
  • One family bought a house with a cracked foundation.
  • I think buying a home should come with like a 90-day return policy. LOL
  • ONE day we will buy, just not here. 
  • We also went to AJ’s tonight to get some salad tonight for dinner. 
  • It was great, my inner fat kid was happy. 
  • This week I am writing an essay for a scholarship that I am applying for. 
  • It asked us to tell them about 1 decision I’ve made. 
  • I feel like I could give them my own heartbreaking telenovela from this last year. 
  • BUT I think I might want to keep it light, fun, friendly. 
  • J and I have finally decided we want to buy a dog. 
  • This is after I put on my Lara Casey PowerSheets that saying no to having a dog was a good idea for 2017. 
  • We are also wanting to buy a new bed. 
  • 1 out of need. 
  • I hemorrhaged in our bed (thank you mattress cover and puppy piddle pads). 
  • 2 out of sanity. 
  • Going to bed in our bed is likely why I have nightmares. 
  • I know I sound like a wimp about the bed. 
  • But let's be real…We had to move homes because our old home was a trigger. 
  • Triggers are interesting
  • They catch you off guard and wondering why you haven’t vacated your brain yet for a new one. 
  • A lot of things these last 365 days have changed - my likes, my clothing, my heart. 
  • So why not change my brain. 
  • Part of that above bullet is out of sass, but part is out of an annoyance.
  • Mainly from feeling like I am forever marked by this. 
  • I know, I already am…hashtag no womb, but I mean in another way outside of that. 
  • Speaking of womb loss and things that come from your womb…Adeline...
  • Adeline is now sleeping through the night. 
  • It’s great, it’s also sad. 
  • Sad knowing that she doesn’t need me to cuddle her in her sleep. 
  • Great because hashtag our sanity was teetering, LOL.
  • She has also started this screeching scream. 
  • None of the girls have done this before. 
  • It makes me want to put ear plugs in, but I don’t. 
  • Any ideas on how to STOP that? I’ll take them. 
  • On to music...
  • Lately, my favorite channel on Spotify has been peaceful piano. 
  • Give it a try…it’s better than that new Bon Iver 😛 (Sorry DLo, I had to) 
  • I have been trying to branch out so Spotify has been a real help. 
  • I have learned I LOVE Odeza. 
  • On to computer stuff…. 
  • I can’t believe I am saying this, but I have nearly filled my 1 terabyte on my laptop. 
  • No, I am not kidding. 
  • It’s my AI designs I tell you. 
  • I thought this day would never come, but it has. 
  • I am buying an external hard drive with my next fun money - any suggestions?
  • Anyways, it’s getting late so it's time for bed…but before I go let’s get humorous for a moment. 
  • I am not one to go political, but these Melissa McCarty skits of Sean Spicer are HILARIOUS. 
  • I wish I had 1oz of humor like that
  • Could you imagine the jokes or the pranks? 
  • I would be in trouble quick…I just know it. 

Anyways, it’s bedtime…my brain is sleepy! Thanks for tuning in for this 1st-midnight mind dump.