Monday Morning Mind Dump
I am stealing this idea from Josh because, well, it's a good idea especially this Monday since I have a lot on my head.
- Most have heard this from me since being here, but it's melt-able hot here.
- I am not sure how I could ever get used to this or how I am not going to melt this summer.
- The list has closed out for a specific job that the AF needs that could take us back to California.
- Now it's just a waiting period to see if we'll be moving before August. *tick tock*
- I often feel like a gypsy - never settled too long for any length of time.
The idea of staying in one place more than 3 years actually scares me.
That thought is probably not normal and has been running through my head a lot lately.
The power of social media. Like, follow, unlike, unfollow repeat? In some cases maybe or some cases never. This thought has two levels 1) Social Media is powerful, not in a self absorbed way, but more so as it can bring the gospel and also community. 2) It can be disastrous when it comes to self esteem.
I recently had a close friend unfollow me and it was over the lack of communication - it hurt that she just unfollowed me, but me not talking to her or being too busy also hurt her.
So it made me realize this move has been felt by all of us, including my friends.
I am thankful that after I emailed her dialog started and we were able to work it out.
Working from Home - Who thought of this idea? Recently there have been days I don't get out of yoga pants.
Wearing Yoga pants all day is not normal, I am used to being up and ready by 6am. The pace is sweet, but the lack of feeling important because I don't put real pants on is starting to sink in. ha!
Being new - I feel like this is just me, I am always new to a team and I am always new to starting something up, like a department that's never been there before or maybe might have not been closely monitored. When I come in and I am doing what I think is right for said item I feel awkward.
Why do I feel awkward? Well, I am very aware now of what people think or what their body language convey's (thanks to working in a business where gossip and emotions tended to arise as a problem a lot) so I am very cautious.
I guess it comes down to the feeling of wanting everyone to at least like me a little bit.
Let's be real, rejection sucks and is hurtful.
Bullying is real. I've tended to it more in my adult life than my kid life, so this week when Ms. Emma came home experiencing it more than once, I was heartbroken, but also on the verge of Dance Mom anger.
Someone once told me that children are a direct reflection of their parents and after this experience with contacting the Mother I might be swaying towards agreeing with that idea.
This month has been the month of things breaking, between my 2 month old dryer to my hair dryer to my AC.
Let's just say I am thankful that as I type this all things are working.
We went on what seems to be a weekly decompress tea date. It was amazing, I'd like to keep that going.
I also went out of my way to schedule some time with someone new I met in a creative collaboration.
I have to say, it was totally worth the risk and worth making the time because I felt like I knew her forever.
I currently have two friends here that feel like this is the real deal.
It's awesome to see God placing such sweet people in my life.
I started volunteering at the Church as their Social Media Manager, it has been fun.
Our demographic is 20-45 year old males so things are masculine - it's quite fun actually because I've either been on a pastel kick or red, white and blue kick (due to my last job).
I like that there is no face to the posts and joke about keeping it top secret.
I also like Buffer more so than Hootsuite which is crazy because I've been a Hootsuite fan forever.
I've started MVM Monday (Memory Verse Monday) and WW (Worship Wednesday).
So far my favorite is Worship Wednesday, I've been jammin' out all week to the Spotify list.
Volunteering makes me realize I might want to pursue something in Church Leadership, I am 100% sure it won't be Women's Ministry, ha!
That alone tells me God is still working on me when it comes to women and how I can view them.
I also helped a girlfriend set up a yard sale for her adoption, I have to say I am encouraged by their faithfulness to adopting out of the DRC, especially since there is currently a freeze on getting the adopted children out of there.
We've been trying for our 3rd live birth (It will be my 6th pregnancy), and I am not holding faith to his plan as well as I thought I would.
It's been really hard because I've never had a problem getting pregnant before, so the fact I've not gotten pregnant the last 3 months make my head hurt.
But it's okay because we are still waiting to get all of my medical records so that I can see an OB at the U of A.
I've been reading Bittersweet by Shauna Niequist.
I feel like she's been me in some aspects and I also now want to start a "HomeChurch" as she called it, basically meeting with couples every week for dinner, rotating homes.
Thanks to a sweet friend sending me an image of Savor (also by Niequist), I now want to read her devotional also.
When speaking about HomeChurchin' it, I realized that Goose is also guarded about people.
It made me a bit sad we've both walked this path with people.
On the other hand, I realized that when we do make good friends, we keep them forever.
My email is now under control, Thanks Diana for passing that information along.
It's time to get back to "work" and all I want to say is "let's roll"