The last few years have been increasingly difficult for my family. I kept hoping things would get better and easier in a few months. Unfortunately, things just kept on being difficult, getting harder and harder. Then one day, everything changed…
My husband has been struggling with physical health problems for the last few years. He can explain it a whole lot better than I can, so bear with me. The main problem is that he has disc desiccation, meaning the discs in his spine are slowly deteriorating. One of his discs was so bad that it was grinding on another disc. In June 2013, he had an artificial disc replacement. We thought this was the answer to our prayers… He would recover from this surgery with full health and mobility.
Before his surgery, his IT job let him go. It had to do with his back, but we had too much going on to try and fight or deal with it. And, to top it off, my web design job, let me go, because they were having financial difficulties. Knowing his surgery was coming up, we weren’t sure how we would survive with three little boys and no income. My husband’s parents offered to let us move in with them while he recovered from surgery. The only problem was, we lived in Oklahoma, and they lived in California.
A couple weeks after his surgery, our family of five was all living in California with his parents and brother, in a four bedroom house (do the math). Needless to say, things get rough when that many people are living in such a small space. I won’t go into detail, but I will say that my attitude about the situation made things even worse.
By the end of 2014, not much had changed. My husband’s back had only gotten worse, no doctor or surgeon would do anything about trying to fix his back. They see what’s wrong with his back and refuse to do anything for one reason or another. I couldn’t find a job or freelance web design work, so we were still living with his parents. We hadn’t taken one step forward in a year and a half. Things only got more stressful. And I was facing a depression that was feeling more and more hopeless.
But in 2015, one thing changed – that changed everything! My perspective changed, thanks to a merciful God. I went into 2015 with great expectations. I know (and knew) things are going to change this year (and some already has). I believe this is the year that we can afford to live on our own again. I believe this is the year that my husband’s back will be healed! I believe this is the year that our family grows closer to God and puts Him first in every aspect of our lives! I believe this is OUR year!!!
We’re still in the same living situation at the moment, but it doesn’t feel the same. I have spent a lot of time each day with God this year, and the first 21 days of this year, I spent fasting (with my church). I have joy that I haven’t seen in ten years. I am growing and maturing spiritually and emotionally. I have seen God work so much in such a short amount of time.
My husband and I have started school (again) to get a degree. After enrolling in school, I accepted two web design jobs in the same week, after a year and a half of zero work. God is good!
I am learning to enjoy where I am, because God has me here for a reason! I’m learning that God doesn’t work in my time, he works in His time. He has a plan, and I’m learning to trust and follow His plan (not my own).
I’m not even sure how it happened. I could say I have more faith and trust God more, but I only do because of what He’s done for me! I can encourage you to seek God first every single day and ask Him to show you where you need improvement. The more time you spend with Him, the more life makes sense! –Jessica Green @ The Do It All Mom
My name is Jessica Green. I am a wife and mother of three boys! My goal in life is to love & serve God and people. I’m an Oklahoman at heart and a Californian by location. I’m a web developer, a pianist, a poet, and a blogger. The Do It All Mom is my blog where I post about everything including life, kids, family, health, food, DIY’s, and more. You can also find me on Facebook, Twitter, & Pinterest.